Not So Dear Ex #LettersOfTheHeart

Dear Ex

You broke my back the first time

Onlookers thought me a fool

They wondered why I laid still

While you whipped me hard

But I laughed at them

“You fools”, said I mockingly

“You don’t know him as much as I do

His whips are no more than cords of love

You think he whips me so I’ll be in pain?

Ignorant fellows! You are so wrong!

He whips me so I’ll cry out for more…

More of him! More of him!

Besides do you not have any other business than to pry in the affairs of a little girl in love?

But they looked on with pity

I never knew why

 

And soon it happened!

“Ah! He has broken her back!” they cried

I was stunned

I never knew you could go this far

My spine is gone

I’m now bent over and broken.

But you immediately told me not to worry

“It’s just the back; you still have your heart,

And that” You said “is the most important part”

I sincerely was in doubt

But with much dearly words, you bought me over

I thought “I can live with a broken back, a heart and you”

Then I heard you say “Give me your heart”

“Had I misheard?!”

“You are asking for my heart?”

“Why would I give you that?”

“Why should I even trust you again?”

And you replied, with the most reasonable words I had ever heard

“Because no one will take you with a broken back anyways

You sure cannot walk

You sure cannot cook

You sure cannot reproduce

What else will be your use?

I would take you just as you are”

 

“OH MY GOD!” I exclaimed

“You are most generous of all

Wisest of all boys!

I’ll crawl at your feet

I’ll kneel to you

I’ll bow in total submission”

Quietly, you said

“You’ve got no choice, you’re bent already”

But I chose to hear “you’re best already”

And I handed my heart over

With such delightfulness

With such glee

A grateful heart

Awe filled eyes

I sang, “Amazing love

How sweet the sound

Shown to a Wretch like me

I’m blessed”, I blushed

Onlookers glared, I cursed

 

Then you started on my heart

Oh! How I loved your touch

My heart started faster

How it longed for your touch

 

Then you moved on to a massage

I protested:

“I don’t need one, go on with the former”

But you shushed me

Said I needed to relax

I kept shut but silently thought

“This massage is much painful than the caress”

 

You then graduated to a throb

“You’re starting to beat at my heart!”

I cry for you to stop

But you are nowhere to be found

In your place stands a monster

With a horn at his waist

I cried, I pleaded

You laughed, you raped me

Then took my heart and crushed it

You walked away

 You left me, with a broken back, a crushed heart, a dying soul.

 

It’s been six years already

I’m sorry to have bothered you with the flashback

I only want to say “Thank You”

Thank You for making me tougher

For making me meaner

And do have it at the back of your mind

That you are being cursed

Not by me! No, not by me!

But by the boys who have come after you

They plead and plead

That I give them a chance

Into this crushed heart.

But I tell them that my ex said no one will take a bent back, a crushed heart, a dying soul.

So make sure you never forget:

You are forever remembered.

25 thoughts on “Not So Dear Ex #LettersOfTheHeart

  1. feel like crying……..
    but you are tougher….. I love that….lesson to all.
    good hand…good pen….good memory brought about this. kudos

  2. Wow! Beautifully craved out with each words,you took us back 10year ago. I’m sorry dear. Glad you stronger and better but you gat to let go and let on,someone out there is waiting for your light to shine on him. Go and love babe,you can’t let him win!

  3. Wow! Beautifully craved out with each words,you took us back 6year ago. I’m sorry dear. Glad you stronger and better but you gat to let go and let on,someone out there is waiting for your light to shine on him. Go and love babe,you can’t let him win!

  4. We share something in common: poetry.Nice poem. As a poet,I know d story may not necessarily be urs,but if it is,I’m sorry but you have to move.God has reserved someone for you who will love you and not hurt you. once again,kudos

  5. This is a beautiful piece. Your descriptions are so vivid. Anyone can relate. Thanks for this bold and revealing story. Let’s speak out and say No to any and all forms of violence.

  6. JSt readin dis nw, and am feeling lyk crying.Indeed Award shuld go to dis letter cuz itz a story dat touched deeply.Nyc1 gal u gat to shake off d dust nd giv sum1 a chance…

  7. Well done, love. You going places. It’s a lesson I can relate to all too well. I’m sorry, love but I wish you a love that is better, purer and unconditional than his, because, guess what.. You Deserve it. Don’t let me or anyone tell you otherwise. #Keep Shining #Keep Writing and don’t stop speaking. Lots of love

  8. Bravo, girlie…that’s really breathtakenly captivating; one could relate with every of what’s penned. Really heart throbbing… #huff…you got me. Kudos! Don’t stop killing it 😉

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